So what do I want to plant in my life? That's something I've focused a lot of thought on since Ostara. My life has already undergone quite a bit of change since this year began. I have been lucky in love but unlucky with writing. I am doing well in my work for my Master's degree in Psychology but I am bored to death with all of it. And now that I am twenty-seven years old, I am feeling pressure from myself to decide the long-term path I want to walk on but that's not a major shift as I am someone who always lives for tomorrow instead of today. As I looked at all of this, what I have and what I want, I decided that the first thing I want to do is go back to self-publishing. Part of my writer's block stems from pure frustration. My books that I've given life to have no place to go and the longer I waste time on an ideal, the longer I waste time that could be spent on a realistic not-so-terrible solution. I'm in a better place than I was when I tried this three years ago. I also have different expectations. And this time it feels less like resignation. I feel good about the idea.
I have considered the possibility of joining a group of some kind related to my Craft for the past couple of years. I've been solitary the entire time I've been a witch. And to be honest, even as I was pondering a group I never considered a coven. But I was longing for a group that I could join to just discuss what we do and how we do it, to support one another, to have the benefits of a coven without the bullshit. I don't mean to offend anyone who happens to be in a coven. I am sure for many witches it is the ideal way to practice. But I am not just solitary in my practice, I am solitary by nature so you can imagine how well I might do in a coven setting. For two years I have followed the channel of a woman on youtube who has been a witch for over forty years. I love her videos, I love listening to her experiences, and I love hearing the way witches worshiped before learning from books was really an option. A couple of weeks ago I saw a video she posted talking about groups she has set up for a Year and Day program and it seemed like an answer to my strange new desire to join something...lol I will be starting the class online the first week of May (I believe). I hope that this will balance out my current learning situation. I am having trouble finding interest in the psychology classes I am in but I must take them and hopefully I will find joy in learning what Anni has to teach in her Grey Stone Path. In case you are interested, here is a video where she explains the program and the time limit to join.
No matter what you are doing this Spring, whether you are actively creating change or just going with the flow, I wish you luck with all of it. And I hope that each day, good and bad, you are all remembering to smile. :)